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| sooo today is my last full day of spring break :( and then I have 8 more weeks to go and then I will no longer be a freshman! crazy. man, sometimes I just wish I could be at Pomona and at home at the same time. There are some things about home that are just amazing cause well home IS home. The beautiful beach, my wonderful bed that I can actually sleep a solid 8 hours on and then some :) , my prayer closet, home-cooked chinese food, seeing my grandma and parents, bread of life, oh I feel so safe and secure at home. but then somehow I know God has a plan for me at Pomona, in all His grace and wonder He's shaped me so much this semester. It's exciting going on uncharted paths and relying soley on God but sometimes it's nice to stick with the familiar. Oh I wish I could always have both. | | |
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I miss my brother. | | |
| sooo last days at home. ohh goodbye sleeping in, watching hours of dvds in bed on my laptop, being able to hold my laptop on my bed (stupid no wireless in dorm), talking with the brother, spending time with my mom dad grandma...I'm really going to miss family :( but on the otherhand I'm really, really excited to start classes again (I know, soo nerdy :p) to see my hall and floormates, and yay a new semester ahead! During my break, it's kind of sad, but I realized that our high school friends have kind of drifted apart. In fact, high school seems very far away. I know it's kind of inevitable and not really intentional, just no one ends up taking the intiative to hang out and even then it's like everyone is in different worlds, it all is too hard I guess.  ehh hopefully we'll all remain somewhat in touch, through facebook and letters and whatnot.
boy am I excited about 2006 :) my goals for this year are rather simple. With all the terrible news of disease, sickness, and death that have been going around, each day I am reminded that life is very short. In fact it is only a mere breath in relation to eternity. so first I hope to start over in my relationship with Him, no stilted doctrine, fancy jargon, legalistic ponderings but really start over completely and create a child-like faith in Him. Not do qts or pray out of habit or duty, but love Jesus as a friend, a faithful Father and my dear loving Savior. I also want to hug more and love more. Being home and with friends from before I realize I used to put up a lot of walls, closing my heart to others so that no one really knew who I was. At pomona I've learned from some dear friends the joy of a simple hug that can really brighten your day and that when you break down those walls and open your heart, only then can genuine friendships be formed. Each day, I hope to cherish little joys like chocolate chip pancakes or the beautiful trees that line stover walk, and not keep myself preoccupied with concern over future career plans or grades and whatnot, but really let God lead the way and take life one step at a time. oh yes may 2006 be a blessed year 
 , Tiff | | |
| so into my second week of break :) It's really nice just being a bum, watching dvds, sleeping in, friends, and family...but I really miss pomona :( I miss our hall. I miss singing manamehna with adam and christine and blasting clay aiken's invisible in christine's room and dancing in the dark to her ghetto strobe light thingy :) I miss talking to amanda through her door and teasing her about eric lindholm. I miss my talks with david at the end of the hall like asking if my outfit is too pink and teasing about how they convinced me sin city was a chick flick. I miss hanging with sidehall and crazy alex's thuds at 3 AM in the morning. I miss kyle, jess, and sarah's HUGS....those HUGE bear hugs that almost hurt but make you happy! I miss Patrick's shoulder wiggles. I miss Alex's random spurts of conversation. I miss waking up every morning to Frank breakfast (only meal I miss) oh and chocolate chip pancakes at brunch on the weekends! well I will be back soon enough, and it's exciting! A whole new semester.
ok so things left to do in manhattan beach for the next 2 and a half weeks:
-naomi day 2mw!
-sunset with meggie
-tiff/tiff pic opportunity? when!
-perhaps belated cookie decorating party w/the girls??
-get together with rita and john, friends marathon!
-any other random friend get togethers
-ucla visit maybe?
-hanging out with the kares :)
, Tiff | | |
| so far break has been pretty nice and relaxing. On Friday night I went back to BOL, I love it when it's decorated for Christmas in the sanctuary :) it's so cheerful. And then we drove through the crazy section of Torrance with the crazy displays of Christmas lights and what not, very festive. Ahhh and Saturday night I went to the mall with Naomi! We haven't gone to the mall together since the 10th grade, such exciting times just to catch up and talk about everything...even the most awkward of subjects lol. oh and at starbucks when I asked for an eggnog latte, they ran out of eggnog so I got a free drink! as christine would say, woot. On Sunday, I went with Jackie and my aunt to see Cats, which could very well be the worst musical ever. It had no plot, the strobe lights really hurt our eyes, and the costumes were kinda creepy. sigh, me and jackie kept poking each other asking "do you get it now?" and using my cell phone light to see on the program when the darn thing would end lol. Oh and today was exciting. I ate lunch with Tiff N, Mich, and Megs at CPK and then walked around the village, I dunno anything Christmas-y makes me so happy. Then Kari picked me up and we had an evening of everything-we-used-to-do-for-fun-ness. Like Barnes and Nobles for a stack of good ole magazines and girl talk. Then to Rice Things for filling cheap food with such good rice :) and then we drove to Torrance to get Boba and to Del Amo to look around for presents. yes I love hanging out with Kari again! so much has changed in our lives and yet so much has not. so glad God has kept our friendship strong.
so after adjusting to college this past semester, though God has definitely present in my life, my walk has weakened, I guess work has often been prioritized over my walk and yeah that has to change. I'm still working on a balance or some way of dedicating time to God everyday and yet still having time for work and friends. I'm taking a religious studies class about the background of the bible next semester which I think will be fun. I mean I spent a semester writing about nudes and courtesans in modern Paris, it will fun to write about something I actually care about, like the historical context of the bible and such. Hopefully a secular viewpoint won't hurt my faith, in fact I'm praying that it'll make it stronger. This whole semester I've thanked God for His blessings over and over again, but He hasn't really been active in my life, I'm praying that He will once again empower my life and make me a light to my schoolmates and in my daily relationships.
, Tiff | | |
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